In my last post, I popped a little surprise in at the end, but I think that picture really deserves its own post.
Baby #5 is due in April. Yes, we were trying. No, we're not crazy. It's just that . . . well, Rohan is almost four! And we like babies, and four-year-olds really aren't babies anymore, are they?
The kids are excited. You should have seen Miah's face when we told them. She looked SO happy. I remember being her age or maybe a little older and wanting a baby brother or sister. I hope she likes the baby as much as the idea of a baby.
I think things will be a little different having older kids while pregnant. I'm just waiting for "How did it get in there?" So far, no morning sickness, but I've been napping a lot and generally just dragging around and yawning excessively. School will be done for the year by the time the baby arrives, and we'll have a nice long break. I just pray I will remain diligent through the coming months.
An amazing thing to me is to realize that God has always known about this baby. While it may surprise other people and we ourselves are a bit surprised as we thought (for a while) that we would be done with four kids, God knew it all along. From the very foundation of the world, this child has been planned by Our Beautiful Creator for this moment in history. And everything He does is good. This baby is a very good thing. Our God is so good to us to bless us in this way. When I look at myself, what kind of a mother I am, what kind of a person I am, I wonder why in the world He would choose to bless me again. Haven't I failed enough? Aren't my kids wounded in ways I probably will never know because of words I've said or things I've done? And yet, here is a new life growing inside me. A brand new blessing. Another gift from God. Why would He give gifts - beautiful, lavish gifts - to a sinner like me? Because He is good. He, alone, is good. Praise Him. Praise Him.
"If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!" Matthew 7:11
"My heart rejoices in the LORD . . . No one is holy like the LORD, for there is none besides You, nor is there any rock like our God." 1 Samuel 2:1,2
"My soul magnifies the Lord, and my spirit has rejoiced in God my Savior. . . For He who is mighty has done great things for me, and holy is His name. And his mercy is on those who fear Him from generation to generation." Luke 1:46-50